losing my identity

I hate how society has put numbers with names. It makes me feel like i am not Aubrie wnek, no, im id# 25472. i mean, is this really necessary?? i understand the point of having an id number, but its like stevenson doesn't even put faces to these numbers. when a security guard gets you in trouble the first thing that comes out of their mouths is "whats your id number". i mean, what is this, prison?? not only that, but society all around me has labeled me by a number. i just got my act back. when i apply, im not going to be aubrie wnek, im going to be a transcript and an act score. how is that, in any way, an honestly good interpretation of who i am? how does a school know that i am not some creepjob genius?? i mean hitler was a genius, but i DEFINITELY wouldnt want him going to my college. but how would they know? all they see is numbers.

yeahhh....

ummm so basically i feel like i apparently have huge shoes to fill after my last blog??? i dont really have anything interesting really, no mental breakdowns recently which is good news for me, i was freaking the fff out that whole day of my last blog. i've been tryin to live my life like normal but i still really dont see the point to everything. I guess the only sociological thing on my mind lately is im beginning to realize how lucky we have it in this area. not economically speaking but i feel like i keep reading stories of people getting jumped and raped and its really scary, and i feel like that doesnt happen so much around here and i think people kind of taket aht for granted. i know i did for sure, but at the same time it puts us at a disadvantage because honestly, if im walking down the south side of chicago, im not gonna know how to defend myself if i get jumped. idk what i could possibly do, im a little white girl fromt he suburbs

whats the point

i've been doing serious thinking all day about life and why humans do what they do and i have some serious questions and am feelin pretty pessimistic about life. As most would agree, good education is the basis of making an easy living. this goes all the way back to preschool. society puts us into place at that young. it amazes me. and then we work and work and work and for what?? so i can drive a car? where am i going to drive it? TO WORK. so i can buy a home? so i can bring my kids into the same vicious circle?? i really just dont see the point. what is there REALLY to strive for in life? here i am, busting my ass at stevenson so i can get into college and eventually get a good job and have kids grow old and then what... die? there are some people who work until they are well into their 70s. i dont see the fulfillment in that at all. i guess i've just really began to feel like theres no point to living? im not saying that on a suicidal note, just on a sociological one i suppose

jails in america

After watching 30 days, i really am concerned with the penal system in america. I understand that the three strikes law is in effect and that there are a ton of people in jail who really actually belong to be there, but after watching the show i felt like there was also a large amount of people who belonged somewhere else who could help them recover from drug problems or get over mental issues. But why isnt this problem being addressed? i think the guys name was randy, the crazy one, he really belonged in a mental hospital and travis belonged in rehab. Neither of them belonged in jail. At the same time, jail was the only time that travis was really level headed, he left jail and started using right away and was arrested right after, so maybe jail is kind of a refuge for drug users?